HLVRAI - still feel. [READ DESC.]
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Published 2022-07-11
so much has happened in the time i spent working on this - moving multiple times, getting a job, and just moving on from hlvrai to other interests. i probably would have been able to see this project through regardless of all of that if it hadn't been for the fact that in late 2021, my computer's hard drive stopped working, and i was only able to recovery about a fourth of the files i'd had on it. i lost the entirety of still feel, all i had left was the work in progress videos i'd uploaded unlisted here. i had up to the chucky cheese scene fully lined and colored, and it was just all gone. there wasn't really any coming back from that. it was definitely a pretty heart-breaking moment because this project meant the world to me and realizing i wouldnt be able to see it through to the end sucked a lot.
but i am still really happy with what i was able to accomplish here. i cannot even begin to describe how personal and important this project has become to me. even though i didnt get to finish it, i still love it a lot. hl:vrai changed my life in so many ways. i would not be where i am at today if not for this silly youtube series. i'm glad i was able to make something that i think reflects the love and passion and gratitude i still hold for hl:vrai, its characters and its creators.
all that aside, thank you for watching. i hope you enjoyed it as much as i enjoyed making it.
and on the very off chance that wayne or anyone from the rtvs crew happen to see this, i just want to say thank you all for doing what you do. your videos and streams and humor are so inspiring and truly mean a lot to so many people. finding hl:vrai, and then your streams and community changed my life for the better in so many ways. thank you.
song: still feel. by half•alive
series: half life vr but the ai is self aware
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All Comments (21)
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wow, i just want to say thank you. already all of the comments under this have been so sweet and so so meaningful to me. i won't be able to respond to all of them, but i genuinely want to say thank you to everyone. everyone who saw the wips and watched the streams and kept up with this project, you all really kept me going. thank you so much ♡
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OH MY GOODNESS, you know what this made me realize? So Gordon goes back into the past, wakes up Dr Coomer, and destroys his passport right? Dr. Coomer was normal before he found out that they’re in a video game. And Benrey follows Gordon around originally because he doesn’t have his passport, so Gordon went back in time and caused the whole thing. So it’s kinda like a time loop situation? Like he’s always destined to go back in time to cause problems for his past self.
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I love the transitions and the references to parts of the series like Dr Coomer saying there's NOTHING outside of Black Mesa or Gman watching Tommy
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God this brought back the flooding memories of peak hlvrai time. The emotions and here and they are strong but wonderful. I remember seeing the wip during streams, you improved so much with this and your current work. I feel so proud of you!! Thank you for this great vid.
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This is sick dude! Amazing animation and the ending bruh. It's so weird seeing the fandom all serious and then there's the series 💀
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GOES FUCKING NUTS GOES ABSOLUTELY FUCKING *NUTS* I NEVER EXPECTED YOU TO FINISH THIS (AND I DON'T MEAN THAT IN A BAD WAY I JUST KEPT COMING BACK TO THE WIPS AND HOLDING THEM CLOSELY TO MY HEART) AND SEEING THIS AS A FULL AMV IS SO GODDAMN INCREDIBLE. EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS VIDEO IS BEAUTIFUL IN ITS OWN RIGHT AND I LOVE SEEING HOW THIS HAS PROGRESSED FROM THE WIPS YOU POSTED AAAGGGESS AGO TO NOW. YOUR LIGHTING AND COLORING ARE PHENOMENAL AND EACH SCENE FITS THE LYRIC AND THE BEAT. THIS IS IT THIS IS WHAT DRIVES ME TO NIRVANA OP HOW DOES IT FEEL TO HAVE MADE A MASTERPIECE??? I AM STIMMING BEYOND BELIEF I AM GOING TO FUCKING EXPLODE THESE SILLY LITTLE VIDEO GAME MEN HAVE BEEN PLAGUING ME FOR THE LAST YEAR AND A HALF AND I DON'T THINK THEY'RE GOING AWAY ANYTIME SOON!!!!! THANK YOU FOR COMPLETING THIS PROJECT AND BRINGING THIS INTO THE WORLD THIS REALLY MADE MY WEEK HOLY FUCKING SHIT I'M NOT GONNA RECOVER FROM THIS /VERY VERY VERY POS
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God, HLVRAI was a fucking journey. One that has legitimately changed me in some small way. This AMV is fantastic, and it brings back a lot of the great memories I'm going to harbor for this series for the rest of my life. Glad I came back to see this finished, and I hope your proud of the masterpiece you created here ❤️
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HOLY SHIT!!!! HOLY SHIT I HAVEN'T STOPPED THINKING ABOUT THIS SINCE I SAW THE FIRST WIP YEARS AGO AND!!! IT'S AMAZING!!! the closer-to-storyboard bits at the end were still incredible!! and your designs changed from the original, I think, and they're very good and!! the different sections for everybody, and the VERY end with taking off the headset and!! fuck!!!! oh my god!!!!!! I really absolutely adore this I can feel the love and effort you put into it and even with all of the setbacks it's INCREDIBLE !!! aah!!!! I'm going to put this on replay for the next five hours,
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dude, this is a fucking kickass animatic, all the characters have so much personality to them! I absolutely adore Bubby's rocket ship heels and coomers arms, and their expressions are perfect, they display so much emotion and its incredible. this will forever be one of my favorite animatics of all time, this is the level of cool I want to be when someday, like, a whole FOUR GODDAMN MINUTES!!! ALMOST ALL FULLY COLOURED, SHADED AND SMOOTHLY ANIMATED, YOU ARE SUPER COOL MATE. I will be rewatching this so many times, best of luck in the future, one more time, exceptional animatic, my dude. /gen
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I remember seeing these first wips and being so excited, and felt the loss of what happened to the original files. I'm so glad you saw it through! This turned out incredible. Your art is inspiring.
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it is literally WILD to me that this doesn't have more likes, it's clear you put a lot of effort into it and it really shows, this is SO lovely
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I REMEMBER SEEING THE WIP THIS IS AMAZING YOU ARE AWESOME
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I found the series by accident and binged it ALL in one day and that day was today
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It's been a god damn pleasure watching this unfold over the past two years!!! Thank you so so much for sharing this with all of us. Seeing this upload just now gave me some amazing emotional whiplash I haven't felt in a long time, and I'm so glad you were able to complete the project even with all the hardships that came in the way. Regardless of how "finished" it is, it's a damn treasure with so much heart put into it <3
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THIS IS SO COOOOL !! i love all ur designs for them (i like how dr coomer and uby get their cybernetics) and the actual animatic is so GOOD ??? and the song choice ?? 10/10 . amazing
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I already left a comment but I've been rewatching this and I have more to say! The expressions on everyone?? And your designs?? Amazing! When Coomer shoots his clone in the dumpster and the LIGHTING of it?? Incredible. The scene change from Coomer falling to Bubby in his tube is also my favorite transition tied with the rocket to bullet. And the bittersweet end gets me every time <3
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OMG I remember this wip!!!! It was great then and it is greater now. I thought I had gotten over hlvrai but now I want to watch it again. I really love the end, makes em feel stuff. This is awesome, thanks for sharing ❤❤❤
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This made the memories flood in, and this animatic is just as good as I remember it being and even more amazing finished wow, so happy I caught this in my feed
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somehow this has become my comfort video??? so thank you for that. i love this sm
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When you posted about the hard drive loss I was hollowed. Having seen the few things you had posted before that it was "wow damn this will be fantastic!" - let me say, for the record, it is STILL FANTASTIC. It is beautifully thought out and executed, and somehow even the 'unfinished' final presentation seems very fitting indeed, given the song itself. You done good.
