I quit my corporate job | Life update

I'm basically the guy version of u. I found ur videos so relatable! I quit my 6 figure job in Nov 2022, took a "sabbatical", and I still haven't figured anything out. Ultimately, I think I might return to it and discuss the prior workload with my manager. I'm hoping it works out better as I haven't had much luck with other interviews. But yeah, the depression is intense man. I totally feel u when u said "I don't have it in me". I'm just tired every day too, and all I want to do is doomscroll all day. It's pathetic. I recently watched a lecture about depression, and I think we're experiencing "psychomotor retardation" which is the slowing down of our mental/physical activities. I recently lost 50 lbs or so from inactivity (all my muscle gains r gone... sigh), so I'm trying a little bit more each day. Hopefully I can get that job back so I can have a bit of normalcy again. Also, I truly think we should join a class or Meetup or something. The loneliness for me is extremely painful and is something I struggled with a lot in my adult life. I've been crying a lot too which is probably contributing to my daily headaches. It's like I've been conditioned to be in this constant negative state, and I don't want to live like this any more. Not to mention my rampant suicidal thoughts. Anyway, I say try putting more effort in making friends. I think bettering ur social life would give it some meaning. Well, at least that's what I'm trying to do. Best of luck to both of us!

Be gentle with yourself. You are braver than you give yourself credit for. Battling depression and anxiety is extremely difficult, it’s like running a marathon before you even get up for the day. No wonder you are tired and discouraged. None of this is your fault. You wouldn’t blame a cancer patient you being sick, so no one should blame someone with mental illness for being sick. Mental illness is just as serious as physical illness. I went through a traumatic experience and lost my job. Ever since then my depression has made it difficult to find the will power to do anything including work. I blame myself all the time but it’s the depression skewing my perception.

I'm not trying to promote victimization, but it's okay to not feel okay sometimes. It's not always your fault. For example, I don't know the full context of why you quit your corporate job, but I'm willing to bet it was because of burnout. We are not meant to overburden ourselves with work.

I think a lot of us are feeling what you're feeling. The goal posts to get a stable life keep getting moved further and further, making it seem impossible to ever get a home or even some basic stability. It starts to get to a point when you wonder why you're bothering because no amount of efforts is getting you to where you want to be. I'm not sure what the answer is now, either. You seem like a smart, resourceful person, so I'm sure you'll figure out your path

Also, it’s not your fault. Corporate is burning us all out whether some people want to actually admit that or not. A lot of places are short staffed and the hard workers who should be getting taken care of and protected, are instead getting thrown more work. Especially those who are predisposed to anxiety and depression if not given adequate down time between projects. I can tell you’ve definitely made a difference and positive impact at your other jobs. They probably didn’t even deserve you.

I was watching another video and my hand somehow clicked off the other video and this one popped up. I am going to pray for you. May you have peace, may you work through your depression, and seek solutions to your current problems. Don’t gif up, keep working on your mental health (call 211 they help connect you with free services), and keep seeking the answers to your current challenges. In the midst of all of what you shared, I hear and see a very resilient woman. Keep pushing forward and you will find your path. Suggestion: One of the ways to help with the smell is to deep clean all of the surfaces especially the cabinets, walls, and your floors with a pet friendly all-purpose cleaner. Don’t give up, hold on to hope, and develop a support system. Candles, simmering pots, and oil diffusers can also help.

Your situation isn't all your fault. It's only your fault if you don't take action to fix it. You've had a well-paying job and nice lifestyle in the past, and you seem like a hard worker who takes accountability, so you're still in a better position than most. I believe in you.

I know this might seem a bit reach to other people but if nothing helps out, don't be afraid to walk into a church and pray and make friends. Just remember it's not about religious but a relationship. We get lost in this dark world and we just need a big hug.

It takes courage to make a video like this. Props to you Christina. I am wishing you a prosperous future

im here with you i feel the same way been 3 years where im kinda just floating around trying to survive I think a lot of humans feel this way ever since the world has changed a lot.

Prayers for you my friend 🙏🏾 We all search for our purpose. When you find something you love doing and can make good money from it you’ll be able to face things and realize it was never anything to be worried about.

You took the words right out of my mind. You aren’t alone in this. I promise, I understand you. Keep fighting.

Life can be so hard but you got this!!

Make small positive steps, give yourself credit for every small step, try to understand this won’t last forever if you do that. Think maybe it wasn’t corporate or you but your particular boss. I work in corporate and things go in cycles of 2 years or 3 years so things change if you’re not happy right now, just focus on getting stronger and not resigning yourself that this will never end.

You are not alone, hang in there Christina!

Breath and relax. Your decision will determine your success. Don't give up. Hold your head high, you have a bright future

Hope you're well since you've made this. I laughed when you said 'this old apartment 1980s' I am a late forties dude (took no offense). I am guessing you are late 20s early thirties. In my opinion it's better to burnout now than when you're older and have never burned out. I really believe COVID and being confined and all the changes is just beginning to catch up to all of us and has forced us to re-think things. It's important to push yourself but also give yourself grace (and compassion). The negative self-talk, watch out for it. When you tell yourself something negative, just think 'would I speak to my friend like this' and more often than not, you wouldn't. There is someone out there that is going thru the same thing you are. Hope you don't feel alone in that. Have a great week. Dust off that peloton and get going.

I am sorry to see you crying. Things will get better, you are a smart girl. When you least expect it things will turn around. I love your cats!

Been here since my 20s, I dont wish it on anyone. As you said, its a roof over your head, im stuck in a house with family judging and breaking me down for my mental health, im working towards exiting this toxic place, just to create a income to do so. Always easy to suggest than do but finding solitude and sanctuary in your loft will help, add a plant or too, a gym space to do yoga etc and I think it will do wonders but I understand where you coming from so don't mean to judge here. Please try nurture yourself, im not a trained professional but sounds like a fall from Grace having a education and skills and created the life only to find yourself here, iv been there and I regret being so hard on myself, obviously you know these emotions are symptoms, its a grind. I hope you find what you deserve, better options to help you out and find relief. Yea only we can rescue ourselves but a supportive community can go a long way. Thanks for sharing your experiences, many suffer in silence feeling unheard and misunderstood.

I'm sorry things are so tough right now. I just want to let you know that I think you're doing really well fighting this depression everyday. Don't be so hard on yourself. Take care Christina. Praying for you always 🙏