Why Did I Ever Try HARD DRUGS??

Important message. You have so many followers who look up to your experience- willingness to share your journey and successful recovery. As you know many addicts don’t recover. Moreover many addicts who are health care professionals need your message and your vulnerability.

Brian you seriously could be a great drug councilor! You have a great personality and your just real and honest!!! I am proud of you too because I know all you’ve been through was total hell but you got through it all and you know that’s not easy !! Keep positive and smiling 😊

I love cloudy ☁️ days and rain 🌧️ too!! It makes me feel comforted, relaxed and productive.😊

Norco fixed all the same problems for me, funny how that works

My dad overdosed on coke & died of a heart attack when I was 6 years old. As soon as I knew that I had the morbid curiosity to try coke one day when it was inevitably offered 😂 which as I grew up morphed into just a curiosity to try any and all drugs when I had the opportunity. Which I did- like you said psychedelics I don’t regret, totally changed my perception on life. All that you say in the videos I’ve seen, resonates! I tried M & H both at 16 and was an IV addict until 22. #4/20/21 over 15 rehabs, I lost count, hospital stays, 9 months in jail, so much wild stuff.

“It felt like it fixed a problem inside of me” I’m in recovery and a nurse and I felt that so much

Thanks for sharing your story. I used heroin and meth intravenously for fifteen years. Today, I am almost nineteen months sober. I've gone to jail countless times. My wife is who helped me turn things around. Can you tell us about your time in prison/house arrest. How much more time do you have on house arrest, when were you released from prison, etc? Thanks for the video. You're not alone in your journey. I'm with you. Have a great day, sir.

I rarely comment, but I just stumbled across your channel and have been binge-watching your videos. Your ability to self-reflect and maintain a positive outlook on life is SO inspirational! Keep up the amazing work :)

I’m pleased to hear you are in your journey of recovery. It’s a lifelong journey. Please don’t lose sight of this road. It’s a beautiful road to be on. Regards from a mother whose son is in recovery. It’s possible. Thank god you’re alive. 🌻

Yes to our “addictive culture.” Great point about opiates “fixing” the feelings of lack in your sense of self, worthiness, depression, etc vs MDMA or LSD offering more expansive and potentially spiritual experiences. My husband has long suspected I have “overfocus” ADD. I do have a bipolar diagnosis, so I am definitely on team neurodivergent. My belief is the root cause of my dysregulation is CPTSD from childhood trauma, not a random chemical imbalance. “Is this helping me grow or is it a crutch” is also a question I regularly ask myself. And thanks for the Earth, Wind, and Fire cover of the Beatles - so good.

I didn't realize you lived in IV for 2 years! I somehow survived 4 years in IV...many funny and sad memories there. Such a crazy micro-culture to experience in early adulthood.

I think you are fantastic person to relay your story through honesty, candidness, and humility

Your videos have been suggested to me because I’ve been watching nursing videos I think. I’m in LVN school and I am hooked on your story. Thank you for sharing your experience. I wish you nothing but the best 😊

Damn. Great video. You explained that perfectly well and I related a ton. Only difference was my opiates was alcohol. Prior to abusing alcohol, the drug experiences from weed and psychedelics was purely out of trying to have some interesting experiences with people or think about these things I hadn't thought about before. For the most part at worse it was just casual relatively wholesome fun. Then at some point, I guess sneakily gradually, alcohol began to feel like a medicine for problems I refused to address. 7 months sober and life is still not easy but I much prefer this new era. Keep up the great vids!

I got here from your video with Matt Cox. I’m bingeing your content. Commenting for the algorithm. 🤘🏻

Great video! I was addicted to adderall for almost 10 years along with being an alcoholic. The adderall allowed me to drink and still function and the alcohol calmed me down when I was too high on adderall. In 2021, I finally decided that life was not sustainable that way. I ended up using meth just before entering into my first treatment center. Been sober since May 2021, minus a few slips with the alcohol. ❤

Saw you on matthews channell, loved your story, subscribed immediately. We have similar stories. That’s crazy you did benzedrex too. That’s actual methamphetamine, L-meth not D-meth, it’s not as addictive and it’s not illegal though it is controlled. That’s wild how similar, I was a meth and opiates guy and also look fondly on my mdma and lsd experiences

Hi Brian, it was great to see a new video from you this evening. It was interesting how you went from consuming Alcohol to other drugs during your later High school years. Just saying that it is a absolute Miracle that you survived all of that and seem to be thriving in your recovery journey. It was a scary thought about the Opiates filling up some void in your life. I guess that taking them just made you forget about your problems and made you feel better for a short period of time. Looking forward to hearing the videos on the steps you want to take before getting your Ankle Monitor off. That will be challenging time so hopefully you will have the tools needed to be successful going forward.   Wishing you all the best going forward and I am so glad you started this channel and all of the support you receive from your viewers.

This ninja done tried everything

So crazy that you searched for heroine and meth just to “try it”. The thought of trying these things absolutely terrifies me. I’m wondering how your brain (cause you clearly are super intelligent) justified “trying” it. Not that I have that desire. But genuinely just curious. Hope you’re having a great week!!!