PARANOiD DJ - 'Just Look My Way (Stolas' Lament)' [ORIGINAL 2021 VER.] (Helluva Boss)
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Published 2021-10-22
• JUST LOOK MY WAY -(OFFICIAL MUSIC VI...
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An original song centred around the Goetian prince Stolas, featuring originally created backing music, sound design, voice acted story and artwork.
After how well 'Eyes On Me' was received as my first attempt at original song writing, this is my second. 'Just Look My Way' was a very difficult thing to put together, not just because of the subject matter but because of other things that had been affecting me outside of the work I do for this channel and elsewhere. Tackling all that, I had constant doubts about how accurate to Stolas' voice I was being, whether the sudden change in tone from such a highly energetic piece as Vox's song to this would be welcome, among countless other worry. But the end result is something I'm ultimately proud of.
Over the past few episodes of Helluva Boss, and through watching the show in general, it's clear that Stolas has a sense of emotional ignorance when it comes to how he behaves and how it affects others. While most obviously seen with Octavia, episodes 5 & 6 helped to cement this further with how he behaves in regards to Blitzo. Using pet names, outright calling him a "play thing" during the summoning, even down to how Blitzo hallucinates being chained to him because of his behaviours. And Stolas seems either oblivious to it or realises it too late.
I wanted this song to address that specifically. For Stolas' sense of arrogance to be apparent in how he can't understand why Blitzo is so awkward about being with him despite everything that he can provide, only to realise that it is his own actions that have caused the problem and how it may affect others. I hope this is a topic the later episodes of Helluva will tackle because the setup for it is there.
As a result, the actual music is heavily rooted in both traditional classic instruments and synthetic soundscapes to reflect Stolas' position as a royal but with access to the cosmos and magic. It's a subdued score, but something I felt needed to be done suitably to match the sombre mood of the song I was aiming for.
And finally, another huge round of gratitude and praise for Ayyy-Imma-Ninja for once again creating the beautiful artwork used in the video. She not only came up with the basic outlines for what I wanted the images to show, but also added in wonderful little details to really drive the point of the music home (pay attention to the flowers). Please support her through the links provided below for her wonderful efforts.
All vocals, sound design, lyrics & music production: Myself (PARANOiD DJ)
Original Artwork: Ayyy-Imma-Ninja
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All Comments (21)
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Sitting in a booth at a restaurant trying not to cry while listening to this. This was so melancholically beautiful, DJ! The music and song choice are perfect! And you’ve nailed the Stolas voice, both speaking and singing! Your voice was lovely and added to the sadness. You should be very proud of this. Amazing as always!
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The fact this song is now canon makes me so happy
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This aged like a fine wine
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I love how in the official video, the lyrics change to make it actually Canon! Here are the differences: "Come now, my little impish plaything, we both made our choice" changes to "But dearest, I know better now. I must give you this choice." This is probably because of stolas's development compared to the pilot / early episodes, where now he is shown to romantically care for Blitzø as well. "What's left for me in this broken house" was changed to "what's left for me and my broken heart" Probably changed to highlight Stolas's heartbreak but also his love for both Octavia and for Blitzø. "Is this what she'd feel? Abandoned all alone and left to fend for herself? Got some semblance of happiness that doesn't have to end" was changed to "Is this what you feel? Scorned by a realm that cannot comprehend. What you are, so I'll grant you this mercy this bind- on our souls needs to end" I'm guessing "she" is Octavia, but this was probably changed, once again to more keep the focus on Blitzø rather than Stolas's family. There's a couple more minor changes too, but it's so awesome they used a fan song and animated a music video for it!
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I can't belive Viv made this song canon and ANIMATED THE MOST BEAUTIFUL VIDEO FOR IT. Congratulations! You deserve it!
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"I need some space to think." Literally goes to space.
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So there was a recent Helluva boss panel that happened and Viv mentioned how a Stolas fan song is becoming canon and getting a music video in December. I am 100% sure it's gonna be this masterpiece. Congrats in advance to Paranoid DJ for making it this far and hopefully this leads to many more great official collabs between your wonderful musical work and the hellaverse. 🧡
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It’s canon now. Think about that!
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The fact this might be canonized-
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The hardest part is knowing that Blitz is leaving a lot of his own baggage unspoken, and he tries to bury it.
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Me, before the release of episode 7: damn, it's so sad, it's literally breaking my heart... Well, the good thing is that in the canon Stolas is not so attached to Blitz. Me, now: FUCK.
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THEY CANONIZED THIS MASTERPIECE LETS GOOOOOOOO
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love the flower symbolism. for those who dont know (i ran for my victorian flower language book when i saw the daffodil) the first flower, a daffodil, symbolises unrequited love and the second flower, a carnation (i think), symbolizes heartache/love
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After watching the latest episode, this song hits all the harder, holy shit.
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This is a masterpiece it really embodies Stolas wanting to be with Blitzo and not knowing if he feels the same or if he’s the issues and even relating to Stella and how she must feel 10/10
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I can’t believe Viv made this song cannon.
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It especially hits you in the gut after the latest episode "oops", because Stolas wants to find out how Blitzø really feels about him and if the grimoire is maybe the only thing holding Blitzø to him. "I will try to make amends " and "If you stay..." perfectly reflect the wish Stolas has that even if Blitzø becomes independent of the grimoire, he'll still stay with Stolas because he cares for him
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I refused to not notice this small detail so I am going to put my thoughts into a comment. The flowers that Stolas summons are quite interesting choices. So I went to search up flower meanings to try and refresh my memory on it, and this is what I've found: The yellow daffodil in the beginning symbolizes rebirth and new beginnings, something that Stolas most likely wants with Blitzo; a new beginning, a fresh start away from the previous life he had despite the fact he can't really escape it. When the flowers change, I wanna say it's a pale red variant of a carnation. Pale red carnations specifically symbolize admiration and "my heart aches for you", which Stolas no doubt feels for Blitzo, longing and aching to be with him in a proper and loving relationship. I just absolutely adore and appreciate that small detail. Just a little edit; was not expecting all the likes and comments XD and I love hearing other peoples' thoughts on the matter and the like! I've only done a wee bit of light research so it's very neat to hear these other meanings for the flowers :)
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I personally think the "She" in this song isn't Stella, but rather Octavia. Stolas cares more for Octavia than Stella, and Octavia expressed fears of being alone, abandoned by Stolas, in episode 2.
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Big congrats to you man! To see your original song worked into the newly released animation ... you should be incredibly proud of yourself! Thank you from all of us!
