anxiety and depression trap me in my room | mikayla jade

I feel like such a failure... like i'm living my life in the wrong way and nothing that i do to change the situation has an effect. I feel completely useless at this point, like there is really no reason to try and do anything. It's so sad. I was so happy before, but i guess i will always end up here

you remind me of myself like no one has before

I really love these videos, I'm sitting here wrapped in my blanket feeling completely numb, I just feel a little less alone having someone be sad with me, you're a really cool person

This is how I am right now, I can't do anything other than be in my room, I can't go to school, work or the gym because it's a literal hell that destroys your life in every aspect, I hope you're doing much better and I hope I get out of this hell hole as well

Some people just don’t understand that those of us with anxiety or depression can have such a hard time being normal and doing normal things, and just functioning like a normal person.They don’t understand how much we desperately don’t want to think this way or even feel this way but we’re forced to deal with it. Sometimes it’s so bad we can’t even think to deal with it so we do the only thing we can think in the moment, which is avoid anything that might make us feel this way or amplify that already existing feeling. So glad to finally see someone show their life in vivid detail of how it is and can be living life dealing with anxiety/depression and just be so real, raw, and transparent about it all.

This video got to me, made me very emotional. You can see the pain in this young lady. I suffered with depression when I was 15, it was the worst time of my life & I honestly thought the world hated me & I wasn’t good enough I just couldn’t cope anymore. Fast forward... I got pregnant at 17, my daughter saved my life, she’s my light at the end of a dark tunnel, everything I do is for her. I’m 20 years old now & doing a lot better, I still get my down days but if it wasn’t for my little girl I honestly don’t think I would be writing this right now. If you are ever going through something.. please don’t ever give up. Time & patience goes a long way. Sending big hugs to all❤️

I couldn’t stop breaking down. I’ve thought my whole life that there is something wrong with me and I’ve never known anyone else with the same issues, for the first time in my life actually hearing someone else talk about the same things you go through.. it’s insane. I really hope we all get the things we need to be okay

Love yourself Mikayla.. even when no one else will, because you are all you have at the end of the day. Best wishes

Thank u for making me feel like I’m not the only one who stays in their room from depression & anxiety.

sometimes I feel like I'm not made for this world, with my personality it's hard to fit in with the society's standards, I still wonder if it will really get better, no one even truly understand what you're going through unless they put themselves in your own shoes

i cried watching this because i feel this exact pain too. I’m 17 going on 18 and i struggle so much just getting out of bed to the point where it affects me getting a job. i used to feel like i’d never be able to have one and that no one would want me, but thankfully i have just gotten my first job and i start working very soon.. i’m not very excited about it, but as long as i can cope and get through the day that’s all that matters

I can’t even go shower due to low energy it’s the worst thing ever. My parents always call me lazy which makes me feel even more useless but I try so hard if only they understood.

I'm going through the exact same thing right now. I'm a 21 year old male. Who lives at home with his parents and brothers. It's been three years that I've been stuck in my room. I dream about getting my own place. I just feel so stuck in depressed all the time. Nobody understands me.

I suffer like this too, its the worst. I wish you well

i 100% get u girly ik im 4 years late but these past few weeks ive been having sever anxiety. and severe panic attacks, my freshman year of highschool was the absolute worst. TW I TALK ABT SU1C1D3 ‼️‼️ nothing like i thought it was going to be, i missed over 100 days of school, had over 100 missing assignments, and was stressed 24/7 thinking like "where did i go wrong", "why didnt i just try my best", i had such a hard year, with zero friends since im an introvert and extremely shy, it was the last week of school and my counselor announced to me that if i didnt do anything abt school, i would have to repeat freshman year, those words haunted me, i tried my best and im not repeating it anymore. (i wrote a whole memoir that described my freshman year pretty well) ever since january there hasnt been a single day where ive felt 100% normal, but lately these past few weeks the anxiety and stress hit me so hard atp where i get sever panic attacks where i get dpdr episodes, my body gets really shaky, my brain gets foggy, i feel cold, nauseous, and so much other stuff, those were the scariest days of my life. where i also had serious thoughts about kms, for years ive always been like "i want to kms" but those werent thoughts that really got to me. the most recent thought actually felt uncontrollable and serious, i deadass felt like there was ABSOLUTELY no other way out, life is so hard currenty and i hate anxiety sm, it affects my life so much, im trying my hardest to fight this and get through this, just know youre not alone and anxiety is a temporary feeling and theres many ways to calm it and get used to it. were in this tgether luvs, and were strong enough to get through this 🫶🏻

let's hope it gets better for us all of those who have depression

sometimes my own mind tricks me. i always try to invalidate my feelings because i dont think i deserve to feel these things. i dont go do therapy because i dont wanna bother my parents with my problems, and im falling in this loop where i cant do anything because im constantly hating myself, but at the same time i cant cry, i cant get my feelings out, and then im again invalidating my feelings and thinking that im just being dramatic. im on my last year of high school and i cant study to any college exam because im trapped. im trapped and i dont do anything about it. anyway, im sorry for the long text, i just wanted to try to get my feelings out, and sorry for my english too,its not my native language.

Hi Mikayla, For some folks it’s hard to know what to say when it comes to depression and anxiety. People who don’t suffer from them don’t understand. I suffer from both and so does my 19 year old daughter. You remind me So Much of her. I still just want to just hug you and tell you that you are not alone. I take my shower in the mornings for the same reason. My daughter lives with her boyfriend now, but when she lived with me she almost never left her room. She is a vegan also. And she had a blog. She was always pouring her heart out on camera. She kept a daily journal. I just stay busy and struggle through out the day. I meditate in the evenings, it helps. But I really want you to know something. I’m all the way in Boston, Massachusetts USA, you are reaching others all over the world who have similar struggles and You are making a difference and making an effect on others who need to hear this. You get yourself to where you need to be Mikayla, move to your own flat if you can. Surround yourself with other loving and like minded people who will love you no matter what. Please keep reaching out.... You are loved! ❤️

It's so sad to read comments of many people struggling with depression and anxiety. I have dealt with major anxiety and mild depression for years. It's really hard when you lose your parents and have no one you can talk to. Wishing everyone much love peace and comfort.

It hits me hard when she said ‘I cannot create’. Im one of those people who FEELS too much, and always wish i have a hobby (whether its music or art ) since its a way to express emotions. The fact that I couldn’t draw/paint or play an instrument. It made me felt so overwhelmed, of feelings. And its just so overwhelming that you can physically feel it... so tight in the chest.