recalling memories that never existed (a playlist)

Describing what every song makes me feel: 00:00 / This song makes me feel a strange form of both bliss and being in peace, not in a necessarily nostalgic way, one way to describe it would be that this song feels like some sort of acceptance, especially that type of acceptance you might feel if you have mild depression, it's accepting that the world while it is terrible in many ways it's also beautiful in many ways too, it's accepting that life won't be just all happiness and sunshine, but also realisation that life isn't just a meaningless void, it's very hard to describe, it makes me sad in a happy way. 05:17 / This song makes me feel a very deep nostalgia and sense of familiarity, it reminds me of the many times during childhood winters when my family would visit restaurants far from our home and drive back late in the evening, it's those memories of when I would doze of to sleep in the car, it's sad how beautiful it is. 09:52 / This is a strange case, it makes me feel empty, but not in a sad, disturbing nor peaceful way, it's just pure emptiness, a mind that is at rest, one which at the moment is asleep, the mind will wake up again, the emptiness will be filled with thoughts and electrical signals travelling between synapses, but right now, right here it's empty, perhaps it's peaceful, perhaps not, but for right in this moment, the mind is resting in a void filled with emptiness, 14:27 / I'm honestly kinda neutral about this song as in it doesn't seem to be able to generate any form of emotion or reaction in me, I am guessing this has to do with the fact that I myself have never actually experienced a moment like this one, my brain doesn't have anything that it could easily compare this song to, this is a memory whose origins hasn't played out yet. 17:30 / I don't really know how to describe this song, it's making me feel a sad sense of nostalgia with the only problem being that I am extremely sure that I have never actually experienced a memory or moment like this, I can recognise the scene without recognising the show. 20:43 / This scene makes me incredibly sad, it's a scene that makes me feel absolute despair, just absolute hopelessness, I think it's because it reminds me of a small jogging trail in my hometown, but it's in a swamp, not in a forest, the trees are gone, the trail itself is overgrown with grass, all that remains is the hiking markers, it brings me a sad sense that something has ended, and for the worse at that, It's as if humanity is gone and the only witnesses left is the structures they built. 24:19 / Its the same as the first

That feeling when you want to smile and cry at the same time because everything is so meaningful yet so meaningless at the same time.

There are tons of people making playlists on Youtube right now, but just how many of them could actually create a playlist out of their own music? I’ve been subscribed to this channel for a few months now, and just want to say I adore this channel unlike any other, and this video deserves a lot more attention! Thank you for sharing your creative energy with the world!

this is the feeling. i literally cannot explain it in words I've tried before.

Once I heard a conversation in a bar. -You know what I fear the most? -What? -To forget -Forget what? -Everything...

Sometimes I feel like I can see different realities, but I can never be in them, I can feel them, see them, and interact like I'm there, given the best life and living my dream... Guess even sleeping is a mistake sometimes, there's no escape for me, but music is where I feel like I can just let go of the chains that weigh me down for once

I woke up thinking about the past, about places I can't go to anymore, about people I love and will never see again, and this playlist helped me release some tears. Thank you so much for this.

When there is no such memory you made and you still get connected to it.

I wish there was a playlist for that vibe of an empty classroom.. kinda like on a summer day when everyone’s out of school, or you are all alone staring out the window as a golden sunset sunlight casts through the room..

I get an "Everywhere At The End Of Time" vibe from this - a kind of sad nostalgia for long-ago events and the memories of dreams. So haunting and beautiful. Well done!

My goodness, you made these songs?! They are lovely! I'm currently studying with this playlist and it is keeping my mind calm and relaxed. Pleasantly beautiful music! <3

THIS. THIS IS HOW I FEEL. Im not sad, im not happy either. I always have this person in my mind, he was my fling back in high school (2009 to 2010 lmao) then i had to move schools & i just.. never closed that chaper of my life. Nothing special about him though. I saw him again one day (sept 2020 i think!!) And i cant stop thinking about him since!! I couldnt find his socials or his phone number or whatever it is for me to get in contact with him but hes always there in my mind. I dont know what im feeling & why i keep on thinking about him. I just hope hes alright out there somewhere. I feel like i just need closure. Or maybe not. Maybe im overthinking? But then why do i feel this way? Sigh Edit: ik no one really cares but he got married!

Sometimes, memories just pop up my head. I don't know why, but they are just there. It feells blurry and old, feeling like a kid again. Then, i feel like i actually saw myself in the past. After thinking about the memory, it gets weird. Just for about a second, i realize i saw myslef, in my body that i have now, staring at us. And then, i want to forget it. I want to forget every single thing. I want to go back in time, but i can only go back there by memories. Memories that i am scared to face with. Memories that i feel sad and annoyed with their existence. Memories that made me quiestion my existence. And then the most terrifiying idea of all comes up, i will turn into a memory. Everything i am doing rith now, is turning into a memory. İ feel like i saw my future self, watching me. Watching and missing me, it really comforts me but somehow, i am scared of it. There will be nothing to prove that i existed one day. There will be nothing to prove that i lived with my face i have right now, i lived all those things that i am living right now. It is hard to describe, hard to tell. İ am not even sure if the things i wrote, are actually explaining what and how i feel. They probably don't, and with my bad english (english is not my first language) it is almost impossible to describe it. İ don't feel like i can tell this feelings to anybody i know.

I have photos of me as a child scattered around my room. I think and reminisce to those times, about what I was thinking about when I was a child, what I aspired to be, what I woke up to excited for the next day, what kept me going... It was my imagination, the future, and the endless possibilities that came with everyday. I miss the simpler times, but I look at me then and now, and I'm grateful for to have been that way as a child. I love what I do now, I love the opportunities that come with the things I do. There is still drive in me, passion in me, hope in me, that whatever comes my way, there is always a tomorrow. It's crazy to think that what I'm doing now is something I feel like I've always had tucked in the darkest parts of my brain. The chance to be a part of the solution, to build a better world, even if it is one brick at a time. There are always new possibilities in every day, and most importantly, my imagination now is just adding more touches to the canvas I started when I was a kid.

I’m really not the type of person to comment on YouTube videos, I usually just observe what others have to say. However, I feel the need to say this, your music is fantastic. The atmosphere it gives off is exactly what the title describes. The slow burning of a half forgotten memory echoes throughout each piece. My favourite is the first, the repetition of the piano sequence is so melancholic. The underlying sadness of each track, as we attempt to recall these nebulous memories of a time we never saw, makes this playlist as beautiful as it is tragic. I’m not exactly a sad person, neither would I say in the grand scheme of things have I had it the worst, but music like this helps me reflect. It helps me try to remember, no matter how sad the thoughts, how joyful times once were, I always have those memories. My little tangent is over. I hope at least someone shares in my sentiments.

i closed my eyes and i went back 8 years , when i opened my eyes the first thing i heared was my mom's voice calling me to wake up and get ready for school ...eveything felt unreal ...she prepared my lunch and kissed me before i go ..As walked down the road i saw my bestfriend she waved at me with huge smile on her face ...we were almost inseparable ... the happiness that filled my heart was warmer than the sunlight ... I wished it lasted little bit longer ..I wished i was able to stop the time and i never woke up from that dream i tried to convince myself all those years that i'm stronger enough to face life without them but its so hard not to missed them... Thank you for giving the best memories of my life

This is the feeling when missing a memories that only existed in your mind , the daydream memories where you're having fun but it isn't real because it's all just a dream , a daydream. And you're saying to yourself that you're in that memories and that actually happened before. It's like you're falling on your own fantasy world. The feeling when you're reading or watching a fiction stories and you're the main character but you realized it's all made up and this memories keeps you sad and happy at the same time. Edit: Excuse my grammar english is not my first language.

When I opened this video I have decided to just relax and promised not to cry. Apparently, I underestimated how powerful this misic is. Halfway through the video I bursted into tears. My beloved grandma, who replaced me a mother and have been taking care of me since I was two, passed away this march. I thought I've learned to live with that but this playlist awakened not only all those bittersweet memories with her but also my feelings towards her and towards me loosing her. I even managed to talk to her in my head a little bit which I never did before. I cried my eyes out but it definetely helped to get out all those feelings I unconsciously tried to bottle up. Thank you so much.

This makes me feel like I'm home. And I miss that home, wherever it could be..

This feeling is called: Anemoia. Nostalgia for a time you’ve never known