Yellow Belt 💛 Growth Tips & Fighting Healthy/Positive Self Affirmation.

Published 2021-10-15

This was fun to make and watch!!

It's not about perfectionism. Although I like to perfect my moves but about how much karate is helping me through really rough times. the beginning of the year wasn't the end of my hell. things kept coming at me after losing my mom. I felt alone, confused, and my mind was broken. I knew I needed to continue on, work through the health issues I've head progressing for years and fight to keep my health, body, mind and soul intact. i am and was a wounded Warr;or..my heart hurts every day and more pain 💔😞😔

If you asked me how I keep going I'm not sure what I would say to that. I do believe on God and know he is there..its been a weird thing on that whole area of my life.
I miss my mom and I have to acknowledge a reality every day that I honestly don't know that I want to be in sometimes.
But I love my family and have fought most of my life to protect the ones I love.
Me saying I don't want to live in my reality doesn't mean I don't want to live. It only means that there is alot of deep pain and to look at it all as it is..that i enjoy my imaginary land..the whimsical wonder curiosity. So that makes me different...a personality issue.

What my future looks like is not what most would want..my past definitely not.
Doesn't mean I'll give up or ever have..but it does change you. Picking up tools like karate and yoga..other well I carry them with me to not just survive. But to one day learn I can fully live. that others choices will no longer have to impact my joy, dreams, imagination or laughter. Through it all I've still been able to laugh and help others to learn and laugh as well. Karate is fighting my internal battles out loud and dealing with them. Then letting go.
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