Why I quit my dream high paying tech job

I believe that the panic attacks and anxiety come from knowing that our livelihood is always at risk whenever we don't deliver every single time is what's hugely contributing to that heavy chest feeling we get. Everyone is replaceable and companies don't try to retain people anymore. There's always someone else willing to take someone's place in a second.

The harsh reality is that this field pays so much for a reason. The VAST majority of people end up quitting the field because it's too difficult and requires constant learning in your free time. Big tech companies and bootcamps have done a good job marketing to the masses that "anyone can code". Sure, anyone can code.. but not many can do it professionally.

You highlighted an issue that I see all too often in IT now. They expect you to walk in the door, sit down, and complete the work as if you worked there for 20 years. No shadowing of current workers, nor procedures given to you to follow. That's not IT. I saw a new IT co-worker make a serious mistake this week because of this. They fail to realize that each company runs their IT departments differently, and not only that, but IT is broad and each place uses either different things or uses things differently. I'm glad you got out of it and I'm sure your life will improve.

Im old school and started tech career 35 yrs ago...it's stressful and sink or swim situation..even on the business side of it. Unfortunately there is no training. Everyone goes through challenges, but people have to start realizing that we need mental rest too.

I relate to what you describe so much. I’ve been in my role for 1 year and 7 months and I know the feeling of feeling anxiety, heart palpitations, working all thru the night to ensure everything is done, that physical feeling of just being sick at the thought of the assignments and workload. I also struggle to ask ?s sometimes. It’s encouraging that you had the courage to resign and I’m glad you gained clarity post experience and spoke about the necessary mindset shifts

I'm getting back into coding. I felt everything you shared. I did it all wrong my first time around. I remember the late nights and not asking for help. This time I'm going to enjoy all the challenges and victories. You gain an new sub. I felt like we just had a conversation. Thanks for sharing.

Hey Jess! I recently started my code and software engineering journey and found your page its really helped me out thank you! I hope its ok i just want to send you a little prayer. Dear father I pray for jess and any fears or anxiety she has. I pray that you protect her from any lies that the enemy or even her self that she's been listening to and that you just tell her how smart and talented she is! I pray for her finances, for her family for her children! I pray that you bless her 100 times more then she's blessed me! I pray for mind, her body and her spirit Father and I just say this prayer not in any pastors name, or any teacher but I say this in the name of Jesus! Amen! Thank you again Jess! :)

I was like that first 2 years of my career. With more experience, you become more confident, and there is nothing wrong if you don't know something or need help. Your colleagues expect you to be proactive; come and ask if you need them. Rest is important for productivity

Aww your Grammy 💔😩 I feel like agencies are the most toxic spaces to work for devs by default. I have pulled a toxic amount of all nighters trying to keep up. There’s never time to friggin know how to do something because it’s always due, it’s such a jumbled way to work 😮‍💨 You are so correct about rest!! Running oneself into the ground gets bad fast. Thank you for being honest about this! Too many dev videos glamorizing jobs & free coffee & lunch but aren’t being honest about day to day life. I know you have more stories to share, we here girl & Happy Mother’s Day ❤

I subscribed because you were brave enough to show the emotions you had about your Grandma. Thank you for your transparency.

Thank you for sharing your story with us!!

I also quit my job it was a toxic environment but I quickly realized is that growing a YouTube channel is hard, I am still with 93 subscribers since last year however quiting is not an option. Thank you for sharing

Thanks for sharing. It's refreshing to hear your story and transparency of working in the tech space. You are a gem and very inspiring. You remind me to keep pushing at my own pace and know when to stop and REST. I can't wait to hear about the free bootcamp you found. Take care!!

I ran into this video on here and it was very helpful, Thank you for the insight.

As a beginning coder with anxiety and is neurodivergent i really appreciate your insight. It helped me see the negative impacts of front end development, but this video made them feel less scary. I feel like your video gave me a glimpse into what it would be like to do this for a living. Thank you for sharing your experience and empowering me a little bit.😊

Hi Jess, I'm really sorry about the loss of your grandmother. I hope you continue to find peace in life. I lost my grandmother back in 2021 and it is a loss that is difficult to describe and is the worse pain I have ever felt. It is funny that you said "why am I crying?". It is rough....my eyes are glazing over right now. Sometimes I cry and other times I laugh. It is part of the grieving process and I appreciate you sharing this video and your transparency and vulnerability. I related to how you felt at your job.....while I didnt have panic attacks I would at times have GI stress or start crying before having to go to work (not even on the most stressful days....just on a regular day). The stressful days feel like do or die and I just enter a thug mode (even though I am dying inside). I remember one time though early on in my current job that I couldnt figure out something basic and left work cause I was about to start crying. Now I can do that thing with my eyes closed. It is amazing how much me let certains voices run wild. I had a feeling what bootcamp you were alluding to. I'm currently doing that bootcamp. Anyhoo I subscribed and I'm excited to see where we end up in our journeys. 🎉

Absolutely amazing video! Thank you

Some very insightful lessons! Thank you for sharing ❤

Thank you so much for that. Really. I've been feeling the same also because of the nature of my job. Thank you for sharing!🙏

I know that feeling so well. I am happy you made the decision to walk away. Sundays are the worst day for me. I feel like I go through a personality change exactly at 4:00 p.m. on Sunday. A part of my anxiety came from the workload the team pushed on me and with very little support which caused me to burnout. I plan to walk away from my role in 2 weeks. Sending lots of love and peace to you ❤