[rawvlog] emotional rollercoaster (strong language warning)

Sorry to hear you've been down :o( Hope the van gets fixed soon and you feel better.

your effin awesome. your a modern day renaissance man. here's some music I listen to when am feeling like the way you are in the video. this guy changed my life forever.  Savant - Hero from the past you should check all his music out!  he's the only god I praise! 

I need to make a video about my supplements, I've found piracetam to help a lot with those drastic mood swings. (but I'm a creative type that likes to change things loool, I just ordered some crazy new chemicals to ingest and try https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tianeptine is one... seems slightly dangerous, but possibly useful) "Hey Chris, it It's like..." statistics, probabilities, you'll hit down days, but there are ways to tilt the odds in your favor.  And I've found using supplements to really help level myself.  Maybe I'll make some videos, I am usually pretty guarded about this stuff, but you might be able to benefit from my magic rituals :) For my mom it was "Get a job" not "go to church" basically same thing though for her, "bio survival tickets" are the savior of the secular world.  And like you said, it would probably not be a bad thing, it would just be straying from the twisted path. (I also love the Tao Te Ching to draw religious feelings from: http://www.wussu.com/laotzu/laotzu45.html) -- that's one of the reasons I'm going hard on finance stuff... I have a vision for this world, and there are ideas that need funding and I don't feel comfortable begging/selling others to listen, so it's a matter of finding opportunities that have a high probability of success... granted, I haven't figured it out!!!  LOL exactly, self-sufficient.  I would've probably done a cut-up of my negativity, because it freaks me out, but it lets me project it.  It's awesome how relatable this video is. Y'all are alright, I believe in us freaks who don't listen to their parents and do all the wrong things.  I personally get a joyous feeling of destrudo seeing machines out-perform humans, like I can imagine this future where humans are mere energy mass for the global neural network~