(DEH)In the Bedroom Down the Hall Animatic (TW!)

*you hear sobbing in the bedroom down the hall*

WHO THOUGHT IT WOULD BE ALRIGHT TO DELETE THIS FROM THE FINAL TRACK ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

THESE MOTHERS MIGHT NOT DESERVE A MEDAL BUT THEY DESERVE THEIR CHILDREN AND THEY TRIED THEIR DAMNDEST

Cynthia is probably the most underrated character in the entire musical. Almost all of the scenes she is in she is either almost crying or is and people don't see her as a major part in the musical and sees her struggle with Connor. She tried to do everything, she paid so much money for counselling and medicine to help Connor and she struggled with everything. In the musical, she sounds dependant on Evan's lie and says that it brings her closure knowing her son had a friend and that he was at least happy sometimes. But when Evan tells the Murphy family about the truth, she is denying that Evan wasn't Connors friend in the first verse of Words Fail. She is literally having a breakdown as the truth finally sinks in, but most people just focus on Evan throughout all this. In the scene before Evan tells everyone the truth, almost everyone in the Connor Project is attacking the Murphy family and blaming them for Connors suicide. Cynthia is the first to blame Larry for this because she doesn't want to believe that it was her fault after everything she tried to do for Connor. Cynthia should be recognised more for her struggle throughout the entire musical. Everyone recognises Heidi's struggle because she gets a couple scenes and a whole song to tell everyone about it. Cynthia gets none of that and only gets a couple lines in the entire musical that is only really used to help strengthen Evan's lie.

If anyone’s crying, here’s a funny story: So, I was singing this for a talent show accidentally sang, “I fed you ninja turtle nightlights for dinner.”

I'm watching this on Mother's Day MISTAKES HAVE BEEN MADE

IF EVANS SUICIDE ATTEMPT DIDNT FAIL THIS WOULD BE SO MUCH SADDER

*Slams fists onto a table* I would die for baby Evan, and little Connor and Zoey

Connor in the bedroom. Conner in the bedroom at a party.

Omg the contrast in the meaning “anything to make you happy”! Did anyone else notice? When Evan’s mom says it, she means anything that will make Evan content or excited, like a present. But Connor’s mom meant, anything to make it easier for you to be happy. Any medication or technique that would make him less angry, and there fore more happy.

"Is there a truck coming to take mommy away too?" me, looking dead inside: ….. Hey, mom? Where do we keep the spare glue? My heart broke again-

Honestly, it wasn't the suicide and Cynthia remembering the good and bad times she had with Connor that made me cry, it was Heidi and how she tried to do everything to make Evan happy but as a single mother she had to work long nights to provide for him which made Evan distance himself from her like that just broke my heart, just that first "Anything to make you happy" from Heidi made me burst into tears because she was willing to sacrifice her relationship with her son if only he could have a better life than hers and that just hit way too close to home

I thought this said "in the bathroom down the hall", and when Heidi brought the box into Evan's room I thought she was packing stuff to go live in the bathroom

Who else wanted to HUG Connor. DON’T EVER END IT ALL. Talk to someone Anyone

So there i was crying. And my mum asked me whats wrong. I told her i was listening to a song and watching an animatic and she said and i quote "stop being such a baby. It cant be that bad" so i showed her and she started crying. my mum knows nothing about deh but this made her cry anyway. Thats how talented you are

I literally just found out that this song was removed from the musical. I’m dead inside ...Okay who do I need to hurt?

“Pffft. I won’t cry with this”. Well, I was wrong. 100% wrong. But it was beautiful.

you monster, you added the plane-flying and the Spiderman

THAT PERSPECTIVE THAT ANATOMY THAT SONG THESE FEELINGS THIS SCENARIO I'M DYING AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

3:38 through 4:07 is what breaks my heart so much. Just seeing Connor’s suicide along with the picture of the pill bottle rolling out his hand as they sing “but I find that it was not.”