retire (final) - alvedon [slowed] 1 hour

I uploaded the 1 hour normal speed of this song!!

I sit alone in my room as I do every night. Alone. It’s to the point where I don’t even get notifications on snap or text anymore. It hurts but still somehow I prefer this way. It’s like I’m not meant to be with others because when i try to be around people my anxiety fires up, like a steam engine pummeling down a route on a cold winter’s morning. Being alone allows me to be myself. The judgement given in this world is sickening. No one is perfect but still some don’t seem to see their own issues and it angers me. Being alone is great but I just want someone to care about me sometimes. Someone. Someone who I can actually trust and love. I’ve come to think I’ll never find those things in this cold cruel dirty world we live in. All I’ve ever received from others including family is anger and disappointment when all I try to do is make others lives better. Apparently I can’t. So I’ve just shut up. When I try to communicate my feelings to others it never goes well. So I don’t do that anymore. Can I just please find that someone if you are really out there?Please. 1 year later I’ve found that someone and now I’m more happy than I’ve ever been. Thank you to all the people who replied with encouragement. I appreciate you all and hope you all are doing well and progressing in your lives.

before searching for true friends, we should probably learn how to be a true friend first

I feel different af. I’m just sitting in my room and my window’s open, I’m listening to this and just.. reminiscing. The breeze is warm and inviting, the scent of summer is in the air.. I love moments like these.. 9:37 pm June 23rd 2023

I’m not okay Lord, I don’t know why I keep seeing the other days ahead. I’m just waiting for you to take me willingly because I don’t want to go to hell due to killing myself. To the person who made this slowed version thank you, I cried with a heart that’s trying to heal from all the past traumas and wants be happy in 2022.💔

You ever just feel so tired of life that you just lay in bed and think about every good memory you’ve ever had and just visualize reliving them all? I do. It’s so comforting and painful at the same time knowing that I have to eventually move on and create more. Why can’t the old original ones just be enough?

It gets better. It actually does.

She was my first. Looking back feels like a dream, or a movie. The tears from laughter, happiness, sadness, anger, love, I can still feel them sliding down my face. Everything was so simple.

I lay in my room eveynight and I listen to this with headphones and think abt life and how my mom was still here before she died but I’m happy now cuz it’s a special day for her so happy Mother’s Day to my lovely mother

This song connects a lot my dad died just 3 days ago, i feel like is just a dream and he is still here… hope he finds peace in his journey..

Well.. it’s finally summer 2023. Spring went by so fast.. I just don’t understand. I love the summer so much, I never want it to end. Everything is so warm and inviting, those warm summer nights.. 4 am.. and if I felt like it, sneaking down to the pool and having an early morning dip. I’m currently sitting in my bed.. it’s 3:41 pm. I hear the cicadas calling and a storm is brewing, I hear the thunder. Summer has never always been my favorite season, but since 2021.. I’ve grown to love it.

Lord Jesus help me soul forgive me of my wrongs and evils give me your love and mercy I thank you for everything you do and have done for me. Forgive my hypocrisy and legalism and let be trust you and you alone amen

I just graduated and this song makes me think about all of the times I’ve had there and the next chapter ahead of me

Crazy how time numbs pain but leaves scar’s, it’s always apart of you.

Everyone has something in their lives going on, reading them in the comments as I have a story too like you all, here this music sets comfort and a deep reflection trance state. To overthink, to cry, to resonate of something we love or hate or miss or just about anything, lonely yet alone internally.

I’m so tired of myself dude. I pray that God just takes me away because I can’t fathom the feelings I’m pouring out right now. I feel so alone and so empty all I want is happiness. I’ve lost so much. Even people I’ve loved most. I’m sitting in my room talking to God about how I feel and I can’t help but to beg to be taken home. I don’t want to be here. I’m not suicidal but I just wish I was simply… gone.

This makes me think it being in a clear ocean, with different shades of blue flowing around me. Listening to the sounds the creatures make. With closed eyes i just meditate,and think.

I smoke N drink to this I just look back at all the should’ve,would’ve and could’ve I had in my life then I realize it will all come again just not the way I want you know…life comes full circle at the end this is peace this really puts my soul at peace ☮️ ❤️‍🔥

pain hitting hard rn

bro what this song got me feeling like 🫢 You in your room, home alone, the TV is on.. it’s raining.. you get a blanket, go to the window, and watch the rain next to your bed. It starts to calm you, you feel sleepy and start to lay on the bed and flick ur eyes closed. Now, goodnight.